OB/GYN: I have to cut her nipple during delivery.
She said I had a lot of anxiety.
The pain is so intense, I can’t even hold her in my arms anymore.
The nurse says the nurse told her to cut the nipple during childbirth.
What do you think?
The woman’s voice cracked.
No, I have nothing to worry about.
The nurse says, “You don’t have to worry.”
She says she wants me to do it because it makes me feel good.
It’s just my way of saying thank you.
How long will this last?
I can do it, she said.
Yes, I will, the nurse said.
I will do it.
Do you feel like you should stop?
I just feel like the pain is getting worse and worse and I can barely hold her.
I don’t know how long I’m going to be able to hold her, she told me.
She had to stop the delivery because the doctor had to take her to the operating room because of the bleeding.
Did you feel the pain during the delivery?
Yes, the doctor told her.
He’s not sure if I have the bleeding anymore.
But, the nurses’ statement said, I feel the bleeding now.
It’s a painful feeling, she replied.
I feel like I’m drowning.
Is the pain making you angry?
I’m angry that I don: have to go through this, she explained.
I’m not angry that it’s painful, but I am angry that someone has to do this to me.
I know what the nurses told me to say.
I told them to cut it out and to not hurt the baby.
I also told them, if I do this, I’ll have to take it out again, she added.
And if you have to have surgery, I want to be with the baby and help it to grow, she stated.
This is the first time I have ever seen that.
I am not even aware that I can say that.
It doesn’t make sense to me to cut something out.
What did the nurses say?
The nurses said that the baby’s breathing is not responding to the drugs they gave him.
He’s breathing like he is in pain, the woman said.
And he is not breathing.
That’s what the doctor was telling me to tell the nurses.
Can you hear me?
The nurse asked.
I have been telling them to stop, the baby told her, and I said I’m not going to.
And the nurse says to me, You’re just giving me this, you’re just doing this.
She says, If you don’t want to do that, I’m gonna cut it off.
You have to do what you have done.
And it hurts, the patient said.
It is not going away.
They said the baby has no pulse.
Are you having trouble breathing?
Yes it hurts.
Have you been told you need to have an epidural?
Yes I have, the mother said.
The doctor told the mother to have a tube placed into her stomach to make sure she can breathe.
Your doctor told me that the epidural is going to do the trick.
How do you feel?
I’m having no pain.
But it hurts so bad, she says.
It hurt so bad when I was cutting it out.
So, I don,t want to have to be at home.
I want my baby to be healthy.
I do not want to take the pain away from him.
And, if it does make me feel better, I am happy that they did this to him.
I would not have done this to my baby, she continued.
Why does the baby feel like he’s drowning?
He doesn’t feel alive.
He can’t move.
He is not moving.
He has no breath.
Has he been given any pain medication?
No, he has not, the parent said.
What are you saying to me?
I don t want him to have pain.
We need to talk about this baby.
Where is he now?
He is not here.
Who are you to tell me what to do?
I am his mom.
My baby is not feeling anything.
What did you tell me to look for?
I told her I had no idea.
There’s a baby in here, she repeated.
So, what happened?
I have no idea, she asked.
I think I can handle it.
I can go back home, she reassured.